Caregiver Caretaker

by Graham Earley

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songs about the balance of giving care and taking care and finding the difference. dedicated to my parents.

album is available to stream on spotify, etc. search graham earley.

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released August 18, 2017

Engineered & Mastered by Carter Konz at Nº Shore Recording Co. (no-shore.com)

Feedback and recording help: Eli Ruffer.

cover art / photo: Graham Earley

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Track Name: Thought You Thought
i was holding onto none
i was only making fun
didn't know where i was from
didn't know

i was searching for no one
trip and fall and break and run
didn't know what was to come
didn't know

but i never wanted to
never never never
never wanted to
be there
so long
i'm gone

we were talking in clichés
hiding everything away
floating through an open space
floating through

we would talk about a change
all that shit that comes with age
didn't know what stayed the same
didn't know

but i never wanted to
never never never
never wanted to
be there
so long and

i thought you thought i knew
thought you thought i
thought you thought i knew
the way
back then
i was so wrong

the dirt gets in my eyes
when a forest grows from my tree
i wish i could see
what you see when you see me

but i never wanted to
never never never
never wanted to
be there
so long and

i thought you thought i knew
thought you thought i
thought you thought i knew
the way
back then
i was so wrong

and i was so wrong

you say a word
i say it back
i change the tense
i add a track

you press rewind
i play it back
am i on track?
am i on track?
Track Name: When You Dive into the Ocean
when we float along the ocean
you're pointing to the shore
i was reaching for the horizon
you're reaching for the oar
you dip your hand below the water
and i dip below the deck
i grabbed you by the arm
and you held me by the neck

so we're drifting to the shoreline
and the waves are getting thin
i say baby there's no way
you know, the water's getting in
but we both know there is nothing
i just don't want to regret it
i say i'm trying to find my way
but i just want to get it

we're diving down
right below the surface
trying not to drown
and when i felt the ground
the sand filled my eyes
and i couldn't look around

there's this distance between us
and i think that's okay
scoot a little closer in your pew
that's not gonna make it go away
we're so far now from the ocean
and when i look back at the shore
i can't keep myself from thinking
what the fuck'd we do that for?

because you
you flagged me down
didn't know what i was doing
so i thought i'd stick around
and when
i knew what i'd found
the tide rose up and
it washed me out of town

when the negotiation's over
i can hardly feel my feet
your identity's a house
and i was just walking by your street
when you dive into the ocean
and i walk along the shore
i was tracing along your footprints
i can't find them anymore
Track Name: Horoscopes
and when i rent a tiny plane
and pack a bag and fly to spain
will you still recall my name?
will you still recall my name?

and when i row a tiny boat
do you think that i will float?
or will i sink and soil my coat?
will i sink and soil my brand new coat?

and when you find my crime
i'll find it hard
and when you read my mind
i'll try to guard
my self
i'm here

and when i write a tiny book
and ask if you would take a look
did i have what it took?
did you think i had what it took?

and when i go to cash your check
and do it all behind your back
to pay for all the things i lack
to pay for all these things i lack

and when i find the time
i'll find it all
and when you changed your sign
i thought i fucked up
you're down here

i dropped my guard.

and what you wrote is in my spit
i swallow
your horoscope is in my skin and
my bones

don't you know what's on my mind?
don't i show?
so you throw out the words
in your throat

so here i am up in this plane
flying high above the rain
wondering if we're the same
been wondering if we're the same
Track Name: O Fauna
trim the stems and watch it grow
but i didn't need the nectar
soil opens to a hole
and when it fills it's better

rain on my back, grab my spade
and step into the cabin
lay a bed of things i made
silent lightning flashing

when i woke i was rebuilt
but there was something missing
went to the garden on the hill
and there was someone listening

and i was calling
echo through the clearing
and trees were falling
but i wasn't hearing

but o fauna
was it something i said?
and is it wrong to
disappear in my head?
and i don't wanna
change my lobe location
so i am gonna
keep my situation

flowers growing
reaching over my head and under my skin
think i'm burning all these buildings,
all the flowers within

but as i stumble
my eardrum shatters
and there's a mumble
pointing out what matters

but o fauna
what did i hear you say?
and is it wrong to
try to find a new way?
and i don't wanna
lose sight of this sound
so i am gonna
keep my ear to the ground

i'm listening
now
i'm listening

flowers blooming
reaching up around my sockless ankles
think the nectar cleared my head out
taking off my raincoat

and in the clearing
there's a garden on the hill
and i am hearing
all the grass is standing still
Track Name: Ocean Floor
bought a house on the ocean
where the ocean breeze is
and when the snow falls in minnesota
my ocean never freezes
my waves fall on my shoreline
my sand's between my toes
and i'm just glad this ocean's all mine
and no one has to know

that

i want to
come clean to you
but i'm just on the ocean floor
this ocean
is all mine
but you aren't anymore
no you aren't anymore

and i'll just sit here under my sky
find something to read
it's funny when you have it all
there's still so much you need
but the sand begins to erode
the tide is coming in
and i'm left with this old sailboat
and not a single gust of wind

no

i want to
come clean to you
but i'm just on the ocean floor
this ocean
is all mine
but you aren't anymore
no you aren't anymore

i have to go
i want to stay
the anchor's dragging me away
i have to go
but leave you here
you'll find your sail
when the fog clears

and you find it

want a house on the ocean
where the ocean breeze is
but i'm back in minnesota
where all i'll ever need is

i want to
come clean to you
but i'm just on the ocean floor
this ocean
is all mine
but you aren't anymore
no you aren't
anymore
Track Name: Some Things I Don't Know
o tell me about your travels
where'd you go?
where'd you sleep?
and did you wear your hair down?
and what secrets did you keep?
and will you tell me where you're going?
or will you just get up and go?
from what i've heard you say in sleep
there's something i should know

i read about a castle
it was made of moss and stone
it had towers for the archers
and a gate of iron bone
and when the gate did open
and the lord himself did show
he realized and whispered
there's something i should know

we'd rather read the papers
than look into our eyes
rub my nose in your hair
till i know what's on your mind
and when those iron bones creak
and you start to clear your throat
i have to sit and wonder if
there's something i should know

wind in windows
repeats my name
open your mouth
but say nothing

so tell me about your travels
where'd you go?
how'd you sleep?
and did you share your secrets?
and why'd you even leave?
and will you tell me about your tattoo?
the one you never show

i've seen it through your white shirt
is there something i should know?

i've seen it through your white shirt
there's something i should know

there're some things i don't know
Track Name: The Weekend
the weekend clouds were sparse
so we rolled out
into the dark
and we rolled out
our sleeping bags
and we rolled out
to see the stars

the weekend fog was thin
so we slipped off
our moccasins
and we slipped off
into the current
and we slipped off
who we weren't

a rumbling sound
a bow and arrow
ear to the ground
trembling marrow

the weekend night was cool
so we slept in
the neighbor's pool
and we slept in
until the night
and we slept in
but something wasn't right

a cloud of smoke
the traffic hum
burning pile of oak
scared of what it's become

ahooooo

the weekend sky was clear
so we turned off
our exit was near
and we turned off
our cell phones
and it turned out
that we were alone

the weekend tide was high
so we stepped down
to our eyes
and we stepped down
from our roles
and we stepped down
to get closer

a distant sound
we're moving toward
mountain from ground
what we're looking for

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